I don’t know what to write anymore
Its like a new brain in my mind
One of listless activity
Of restless itchiness
I get this sense of urgency
To get up and get going
To leave this place for good
And redirect my flow - that’s it - of course!
Why hadn’t I thought of it sooner:
I need a new direction
To set me back on course
I’ve been seeing shadows and painting pictures in my mind
But it’s a mind of a woman who’s lost her drive
All she does it sigh
And gaze at the lumps on his ceiling wishing they stars
There I’ve said it – it’s out of my mind – it’s free from my mind
But I’m not free
And I’m fine with that
Because you know what, people?
Freedom is a cruel joke played on us by our teachers
You can’t be happy and be free
Just how you can’t sneeze with your eyes open
It’s biologically detrimental to the nerves inside my brain
To think that I have no body or a heart or a vessel for my blood
To understand that I may not even have a memory to go back to
To ask if what I experience monotonously cannot be taken seriously
To know that what I know it not important to any man or any neutrino
No I’m not out of my mind – I’m fully aware of my metaphysical state
And not the breezeblocks that tie me down to a polished outlook
No
I prefer to see through shattered planes of glass
Through which I’ll leave the puzzle unfinished
It’s only fair
It’s only right
In a just world like ours
That we forget the system that we’ve created so perfectly to fit within another nonexistent system
And yet it’s still there
Roaming where we can’t go
And moaning when we can’t join
I want to meet this nightmare of a beast
But I’m afraid I’ve misplaced his contact info